Update

Mark is trying to get into Michigan State University for his Masters in Social Work, still looking for a job and taking care of me.  He needs a vacation from all the stress and struggles he is going through.  I wish there was something I can do to help him.

Is there any suggestions out there?  He travels between Mt. Morris and Port Huron all the time because his house is in that area and my apartment is here.  He tries to take care of both places, but it gets difficult with the weather.  I will just have to pray for an answer.

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I just thought I would tell you about my "husband" Mark because he is a wonderful person.  Before we met he was taking care of his mother who was dying of breast cancer.  He quit his job to become her caregiver.  After her passing, he could not get his job back.  So, he went to Baker to get a degree in Human Service where we met...yay!

I was very relationship shy so I would not marry him when he asked.  I was way too scared, but he hung around regardless...helping me, being there for me, you know, all the good stuff.  It took six years before we committed to each other.  We are not legally married but we did have a church ceremony.  I can't get married without losing medical insurance, that is why we did not legalize it....but I wish I could.  He is constantly looking after me, helping me with school, and he is working hard to get a job.  If anyone is an awesome worker, who deserves a job it is Mark.

I love him!

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I love animals and wild life.  I wish I had a picture of my cats on this computer because I definitely would post it.  The only thing I could find was this wildlife picture  of a Koala.  I thought he is pretty cute so I thought I would post it, because my blogs tend to be very boring.  So, I hope you enjoy it!

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I am a pretty spiritual person and the thing is I haven't went to church in a very long time.  I don't really have a church to go to.  I know you don't have to go to church to have a relationship with God, but it helps me to stay on track when I do.

I have always been one who struggles with depression and my spiritualality keeps me out of very dark places.  However, school has been very difficult this semester and I am finding myself struggling with depression again.  I know what I need to do to keep myself afloat...I just sometimes get tired.

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My mom had a siezure out of the blue.  She has never had a seizure before.  It is scarey.  She had another one when she got to the hospital.  The doctors found a small bleed on the brain, but they say it is not what caused them.  They really don't know what caused them.  They are keeping her on anti seizure medicine.

The doctor found three injuries when they checked her out.  One was a fracture some where near her right shoulder, she also has a tore a muscle in her left tricept, and lastly they found a compressed disk in her back.  She is on morphine for pain medicine and she needs to gain some weight because she is 6 feet and wieghs 120 pounds.  I am worried about her.

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This is the craziest week I have had lately.  I just can't seem to keep on top of things.  Between the three classes and the holidays.  I am just busy.  I had to cancel appointments and give up horseback riding just to try and fit everything in.

Now it is snowing and my anxiety is very high.  I don't have the skills yet to drive in the snow and I need help learning how to turn into a skid and deal with all the lovely things like snow and ice.  Sometimes I feel like such a child because I should already know how to do these things.